little cities

I have mired in the contemplation of a life lived loosely and young. I think my harassment of myself is less important than the integration of my actions into a community outside of the digital hogwash and information overload (ok so a lot of it is really interesting) that has defined a lot of free time in my life. Expression of my thoughts in written form in this forum might not accomplish much in that desire but it is something. I'll be less obtuse someday, I tell myself, I will speak my thoughts and act on my desires when that happens. The culture of control and surveillance won't be the only preface to my day. I will not allow myself to consumed by the gargantuan issues of massive social and environmental movements without actually being involved in the personal relationships they engender. I will be the person I can based on the investments in the world I have made and those I wish to reap further benefits from, and my priorities will include the gifts I have to be in relation to people as they are, not as iconographic imaginary possibilities. Perhaps my ego will be stable someday, but I think that will be less interesting anyways. I don't think that makes sense, but I'm going to leave it there anyways. My own psychology has long since bored me, and I need to speak with a new identity. May Copenhagen this week make some difference in my life? We'll see, I think I lose credibility thinking so. Anyways, may the next blog posts be better structured.